Today I cried tears of joy for the first time in a very long time. I was at work when our receptionist told me that two women were waiting for me at the front desk. Very confused, I came to meet them and realized that they were complete strangers. They asked my name, handed me an envelope, and ran off before I could ask who they were or who the letter was from. I opened the envelope. Inside was a sweet note saying that I was being prayed for, cared for, and supported by a group of women. There was no signature or names listed. The envelope also contained a lot of cash. I am completely floored as I have no idea who sent this to me.
This card could not have come at a better time for me. Last summer my boyfriend of 3 years passed away in a car accident and I felt like my life was over. He was my best friend. The one person I could always count on. I’ve spent the last 9 months being angry at God for taking such a wonderful person too soon. I’ve questioned by own beliefs, blaming myself and agonizing over his absence. I’ve had good days and bad days…trying to remind myself that there’s a reason I’m still here and that good still exists in the world. The past few weeks have been pretty bad and I keep my pain to myself because I know how uncomfortable it makes other people, and most of my friends are young and have no idea was it’s like to lose someone or what to say. Today, this little gift I received gave me something I thought I had lost…hope. You always hear stories about random acts of kindness and “paying it forward” but actually experiencing it is completely different. I feel humbled, grateful, and awe-struck. Thank you thank you thank you to whomever sent this to me. You have given me so much more than a card and money. You have given me hope and reassurance that in spite of all the pain and darkness, there is still good in the world. I am blessed. Thank you.
~S